Wednesday, December 15, 2010

A Dissimulated Prevaricator

Ever met someone who had a fight with another person and tells you the reason why they fought? Well of course you do... but do you pay attention to what the person tells you? He/she in his/her side of the story... they usually turn out to be the good person! Fucking liar!

That's why I also talk to the person who they fought with. Sometimes they may be a liar too but pointing out the bigger liar is easy. These big liars usually give out petty and unreasonable excuses on why they fought with that person... but if the other person's side of the story is more reasonable I guess it's better to understand the person than be biased.

My friend which will be remained unnamed had a fight with a group of her friends and tells the reason that she was the victim of doing an innocent act that she finds petty while her friends find it a matter of consequence. While I asked the group of friends on why they fought and it turns out they had a more reasonable excuse... they were actually backstabbed by this person (MY FRIEND). They had a good resource too... These resource too are no liars.

ANYWAY I CAN'T PROJECT WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY! BUT IT'S ALWAYS GOOD TO STAND UP TO YOUR FRIEND BUT YOU ALSO HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THE REASON (FROM BOTH SIDES) WHY THEY FOUGHT! FIND THE BIGGER LIAR THEN DON'T CHOOSE ANY SIDE! JUST FIND A WAY TO CORRECT THIS! IF YOU WERE OFFENDED BECAUSE YOU READ THIS (MY FRIEND) YOU BETTER NOT LIE! I'M THE ONLY FEW WHO WILL SUPPORT YOU!

Monday, November 15, 2010

Decathexis and Sadomasochism

Point of view... It's so important that putting yourself into another's position will help a person understand more of other's lives. People are despicable and stupid when it comes to viewing another's point of view. I believe fighting will best be solved if you understand our enemies first unless they're honest on what they say. Putting yourself in another's point of view will best understand why there are conflicts... Could it be that you've abused someone too much? Feels overwhelmed and provoked by you? Or you're just ridiculous that you're worth destroying?

We sometimes suppress the need to maintain life and take a chance and view what will happen when we destroy. Laughing is very good for the health because Psychologically, Physically, Emotionally and for some Spiritually it keeps you uptight. But sometimes we laugh at someone that drastically damages that said health indicators above. Sadomasochism is fun in some ways because I am, but I don't always laugh I don't even know when they're hurt... I just find them stupid. :) Then again change the point of view what would you feel if you've been laughed at... but it would be okay when it's around friends... :)

WELL FOR THOSE WHO JUST CAN'T SWALLOW THEIR FUCKING PRIDE AND CANNOT APOLOGIZE EVEN THOUGH THEY STARTED IT! VIEW IT FROM YOU ENEMIES PERSPECTIVE... IT COULD BE HE/SHE MAY BE JUST INTIMIDATED OR THEN AGAIN MAYBE YOU JUST SUCK!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Ennui, Lassitude & Pococurantism

Nothing relevant happened today just some same shit we always do at school. I don't know actually why I'm blogging! I'm just so bored... therefore the TITLE :| Anyway I talked with my seatmate on the left about blogging about my attitude yesterday and he/she said that I'm not a bad person but I am genuine one and honest. He/she said being frank isn't wrong, apologizing after will make it better... but I don't apologize because I know they're used to me.

There is a very very deep reason why I'm so brutally frank and the reason is a secret between me and I only! Anyway there was a saying when a person is abusive to his/her children the children themselves would be abusive to their own children... therefore the reason of my attitude! I'm sick of everyone's shit! I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME! I DIDN'T LIVE TO PLEASE YOU NEITHER TO BE INSULTED!

I don't even know why killing is illegal! Anyway it's the victim's fault if he/she is killed by another person because the killer isn't treated right by the victim... So who is the bigger victim? THE ONE WHO LOST A LIFE? OR THE KILLER ABUSED BY THE VICTIM?

My opinion is that the Killer is the bigger victim... This person wouldn't harm the victim if they know how to treat a person properly! AND PLEASE DON'T HATE! THINK FOR YOURSELF FIRST! YOU KEEP ON HATING BUT IGNORE THOSE WHO HATE YOU! DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE FILLED WITH FUCKING FUNCTIONAL FRIENDS AND HATRED BECAUSE ALL YOU DO IS GIVE AND RECEIVE HATE! THEY SAY STUPIDITY HAS NO CURE BUT I DON'T BELIEVE THIS, WHAT I BELIEVE IS NO ONE CAN CURE ANOTHER PERSON'S STUPIDITY BUT THE PERSON WHO IS STUPID HIMSELF CAN CURE THEMSELVES.

The backstabbing site called formspring.me is really not created for hating. Some of my friends have haters and reading those makes me hate those who did that to my friend. Don't you see hating will spread! SO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JUDGE YOURSELF AND LEARN! UNDERSTAND YOURSELF WHY YOU HATE AND WHY OTHERS HATE YOU! I KNOW YOU DIDN'T LIVE TO PLEASE OTHERS BUT AT LEAST GIVE LOVE AND RECEIVE HATE AT LEAST YOU DON'T SPREAD IT!

TAKE IT FROM ME... I'VE BEEN THERE SO MANY TIMES! I HAVE BEEN MISTREATED A LOT OF TIMES AND THIS TIME I DON'T SPREAD THE HATE I JUST IGNORE IT! :D ANYWAY AS CLE TEACHERS SAY: THERE ARE GIVENS IN LIFE THAT WE CANNOT OVERCOME BUT RATHER GO AROUND IT! THEREFORE IGNORE THE PERSON WITH A SMILE! :)

Monday, November 8, 2010

Impeccable Candor

"Honesty, is what you need. It sets you free, like someone to save you." -OneRepublic, Someone To Save You. Are you always honest in everything you do and say? Do we need honesty to understand everything we do? Will lying help a person? Is impeccable candor important as well? For me I don't know...

Lying and honesty has served mankind so well that it completely separates trust equally between the two... No one will ever understand when lying to pleasure a person will help them or whether to hurt the person through HONESTY itself... People who claim to be "GOOD" choose to lie and never harm the person, but isn't lying a sin... OBVIOUSLY IT IS! Anyway...

Most of the people regard me to be mean and insulting...I chose to be the "BAD" people when I completely tell the truth but harm the person. People are so oblivious that once a person has been induced with so many flattering lies they become sensitive to any topic that may discuss their problems in any way it may relate to it. Thus causing misunderstanding and more harm to those people who have been lied to.

CONCLUSION? I don't regard anyone neither Bad nor Good because when a topic talks about honesty. People have different views about honesty and truth that what I do is so bad for the world that they misunderstand me. IN MY VIEW I'M ACTUALLY DOING SOCIETY A FAVOR SINCE MOST PEOPLE WHO COMPOSE SOCIETY ARE LIARS! I'M NOT PROUD OF HARMING A PERSON BUT THEY HAVE TO KNOW THAT LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS ABOUT PLEASURE AND AT LEAST THEY KNOW THAT WHEN THEY ASK A PROBLEM THEY CAN SOLVE IT WITH EASE! THIS BEHAVIOR SICKENS ME! A PERSON MUST BE MATURE ENOUGH TO TAKE THIS KIND OF ANSWERS! IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE OFFENDED WHY BOTHER ASKING IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!! THINK AGAIN PLEASE!!!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Thanatos is Destrudo & Mortido

Ever been tired and sick of living... even only for a moment? Well all of us may have experienced this... So let us talk about what people despise? or want? It's called DEATH. Death is inevitable, unpredictable, worrisome, feared, sacred, and sometimes wanted. Honestly most of the time I am suffering from Destrudo, a psychological aspect opposite to libido it aims to destroy other's lives usually in the form of murder and torture.

It is very normal to fantasize about killing a person but excessively drowning in these forms of thought and eventually planning it is dangerous and may seriously lead a person suffering from Destrudo to do it. Well of course everyone wants to kill someone but doesn't have the determination to do so... not that I have but the only thing making me stop in killing is... God. The fact that I'm a Nihilist only a MORAL NIHILIST. Anyway hope that I don't. :) And the target won't be you.

I also suffer from Mortido, a psychological aspect opposite to libido it aims in destroying the persona's life in anyway possible. Suffering from Destrudo is hard and I'm so scared that I may eventually kill someone which leads me to suffer from Mortido. I eventually had plans and deep thoughts about destroying my own life I got sick of it. Suffering from it made me realize why suffer more and more when we can enjoy life... I am having a hard time curing myself from both Destrudo and Mortido but at least It didn't happen. So all I'm saying don't drown in someone's hate and don't drown others with hate...That's the problem with people they don't know how to stop hating when they keep worrying about world peace... THINK FIRST PLEASE! :D

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Vociferous and Stentorian

"Hey are you okay?" "What the fuck?" "Oh! I didn't mean to piss you off!" "What was your question?!" "Are you okay?" "NO! Especially when you're around!" "I'm sorry..." "For what? For being yourself?" "No, for accidentally pissing you off!" "No, I want you to apologize for being yourself!"

If you know the meaning of either vociferous and stentorian you would know what I'm gonna blog about. Fuck I'm sick of everyone's shit and their incapability to control themselves! Le'il figlio du'n cane! OH MY GOD!!! I REALLY WANT A SHOTGUN! Just point (at one's knees) and shoot! BAM! No more legs for you fuck face!

Seriously this is how severe my anger for this so called SOCIETY? :| But shit you don't know the feeling... and the stupid thing is they don't have the capability to listen... which is worse! GAWD! I know we were raised differently by our parents but obviously they weren't thought discipline!

SO what would you do if a vociferous or stentorian person is in your whereabouts and he/she is completely aggravating your ability to be patient? GO BUY GUNS, SYRINGES or KNIVES? Whatever is fun I guess!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Trouncing Vituperatively

"GO TO HELL!" "Excuse me I'm not as excited as you, you can go ahead if you want..." "Shut the fuck up!" "*clap clap" "You suck!" "Teach me how I know you're good at it..." "Shut your asshole bitch!" "It's already tight not like yours..."

HELLO EVERYBODY! Got haters? Well obviously many of has one... No matter how good you're there would be always someone hating you. Not that I hate haters (I ACTUALLY DON'T) I just find it sad and stupid for them to hate... Imagine all you do is hate and obviously he/she has her own haters too! Isn't that sad all you do is give hate and receive hate... A very happy life for a hater.

I don't mind haters because I also pity their immaturity to stop hating and to learn to apologize. "HATERS USUALLY HATE WHAT THEY DON'T HAVE IN ANOTHER PERSON." Example their ability to be good and to stop hating. LOL! FAIL for haters! "Jealousy is worse than murder." Because when you're jealous you suck the happiness from somebody else hence killing them then leading to a suicide of either the hater or the one being hated. So if you're a hater... Better stop it... It won't make anything better... SPREAD LOVE! NO ONE WANTS HATERS RIGHT?! SO STOP BEING ONE!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Decease of an Eidolon

"What the fuck are you doing here?" "You're sick and I just wanted to check if you're okay..." "I'm fine! Leave me alone." "I just got here and you're not fine... You're sick." "I know and it's getting worse by the second when I see you..."

So hi! How is life? Sick of the same old boring routine? To wake up in the morning and to go to the building they call school!? Well who isn't... OH I KNOW I NEED SCHOOL but fuck it is boring... Anyway these extra curricular activities is really draining all of my will to study and even to go home...

FUCK I'm just sick of routines!! I NEED TO DO A GET OUT AND TRY MANY THINGS! Such as buying a gun and shooting at a crowd on October 12, 2010 at the assembly in CSA for UN! It would be a very nice international massacre! Probably sky diving and then opening the parachute near the ground then break my legs... LOL! or bring a grenade or a bazooka and shoot randomly! FUN! :}

ANYWAY WHAT WOULD YOU WANT TO DO TO BREAK YOUR ROUTINES?

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Salubrious and Vitriolic

"You better stop that!" "Why?" "That's dangerous!" "It doesn't concern you anyway..." "Go ahead and die..." "At least I'd die happy."

I find it ridiculous when people say "HURT ME WITH TRUTH RATHER THAN PLEASE ME WITH YOUR LIES." (It's a like page on FACEBOOK) and many of my friends seem to join that page... well I don't mind but I find others who join that page hypocritical. Honestly I'm brutally frank and anyone who meets me would obviously know because I start to joke and kid about that new person I just met. :))

Being brutally frank had made... I don't know some of my friends stronger? They are able to tolerate insults and jokes unlike before they get SO PISSED OFF! :)) A person can't always ask for a good compliment because life isn't about feeling good all the time OK!

I've been told many times that I should hold my tongue... which I know... when I speak they say it is unnecessary but seriously it is... FOR EXAMPLE: If a person ask how she/he looks but they look so fucking horrendous would you say... Oh that's fine? FOR ME NO!!!!!!!! I'd say what the fuck?! That's so ugly! This is no laughing matter that people lie just so they cannot hurt their friends. WAKE UP!! It's your friend... They expect you to give an honest answer rather from people they are not close with... MY GOD! Think! Anyway I don't know what I'm saying anymore... what I'm just trying to point out is DON't BE A HYPOCRITE!!!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Virulent Necrosis

"I heard you had a hard time..." "What the fuck do you care?" "I'm just concerned..." "I'm not asking for any..." So another boring and fucking day... Anyway some classmate has been having a hard time in believing between Heaven & Hell... Well honestly I believed... But somehow I'm tired of being a Christian-Catholic...

Not that I hate God(I NEVER DID, I ACTUALLY LOVE HIM) but the face that in my religion believing in the afterlife is kinda tiring... I'm tired of living MY GOD! If I go to Hell... ETERNAL DAMNATION isn't pretty fun especially when you read Dante Alighieri's The Inferno... If I go to Heaven... WHAT THE HELL DO WE DO THERE!... We would keep on singing to GOD EVERYDAY... just the thought of it seems tiring even though GOD promises some eternal energy for Him to be worshipped...

Catholocism has its flaws especially in defending itself from questions... It seems all they answer is... FAITH... What's with faith? FAITH in their context is "I DON'T KNOW"... They learned how to adapt from these problems... People won't care if the priest is so fucking boring and they keep saying verses from the Bible and WOAH!! what the fuck did he just say?

Then they would say if you didn't understand it... "FAITH"... I'm sick of faith... but never tired of GOD... It would be an eternal search to find the truth about this certain "FAITH" that they call... My mom and I had a conversation about this "FAITH" and between the context of Heaven & Hell and told her I'm tired of living after dying...

Although GOD promised this eternal life... Didn't anyone consider and thought... LIKE ME that I'm tired of living... All these stress (ALTHOUGH GOD WOULD TAKE IT ALL AWAY) it would be boring... Anyway I don't know what I'm saying anymore because all these questions about FAITH is pouring out that I didn't think that my blog would be very long... BUT A CERTAIN QUESTION IF YOU EVER READ THIS...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN HEAVEN & HELL? DO YOU CONCEDE TO THIS "FAITH"? DO YOU WISH TO UNDERSTAND MORE OF GOD?

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Educe the Obliterated

Hi blogger I miss YOU!! LOL.. ( NOT REALLY!) Fuck shit... :| Actually I really do.. Anyway I'm tired of everybody announcing their problematic shit that they initially forgot that we're also fucked up. I'm tired of people complaining about things which obviously they can control such as grades... "WHY AM I FAILING?!" (well obviously we know why and the good thing about it is I SAY IT STRAIGHT) "PUTANGINA TANGA KA KASI!"

Sometimes they just don't listen... Uncontrollably making noise that is so fucking irrelevant... So what's bad about bringing a shotgun to school... NOTHING. Anyway my blog today is kinda confusing... even for me it is confusing. I ALSO BLOGGED BEFORE ABOUT MISANTHROPY... I GUESS NOTHING WILL BE STOPPING ME TO BE MISANTHROPIC AND SHITTY AS OTHER PEOPLE WHO CALL THEMSELVES BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE...

As stupid as it might get apologizing is what we call a temporary relief... :)) We become friends again then shit happens again... but what happens is worse so WE BETTER KEEP fighting until their SHITTY ATTITUDE IS TORN APART... blah..

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Cruciation and to Extirpate

Torture and killing is bad? Well we had a discussion about Oedipus which says once a person has made an enemy he is obliged to harm his enemy. I have a question for you: "Do you like this form of system where we can harm those who harm us." Sometimes I do... a little revenge won't hurt, but when I fantasize about it, it drives me more to fantasize about torture and killing the person more. GOD it can be sometimes so pleasurable to kill especially torture someone you hate.

When you think I'm a bad person... GO FUCK YOURSELF!! Like you don't fantasize about killing someone too. Sometimes I think about torturing them and leaving them to die and suffer from the pain. :) This actually made me smile seriously. I told my mom about this and she told me to control myself because there would be a tendency that I might kill someone. WELL... too bad for that person who I get to kill, because don't bitch about me.

Anyway I find haters very stupid, didn't they ever think that they also have haters that's why I leave them alone, but once I get pissed off... OHHH!!! I'd REALLY WANT A CHAINSAW, BLOWTORCH, and HAMMER to torture anyone. Yeah anyway fantasizing is normal... KILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Aurum Saturnalia

YAY!!! Not really the "Golden Anniversary" but more on the 50th post. Just did this post because I was bored and I fucking infected so many people today 3 more people fell victim to a disease I got from my brother.

When I was able to go to school Jaime had colds too!! FAIL... :| So I fucking hate the day because I can't concentrate because I have a headache from excessive sneezing and blowing of the nose. So I was totally pissed I can't even talk properly.

AND THEN I went to the bus and my bus driver was complaining that he got the colds and he had a sore throat!! FAIL... :| Then Bolilia got in the bus and complained too!! FAIL... :| My God! I'd be wearing a face mask tomorrow to prevent further infection. Well I don't know if its bacterial or viral but it think it is viral, which is much more easier to contract. Anyway I chose the song "Jar of Hearts" because she said you might catch a cold. :)

Monday, July 12, 2010

Virulence and Paroxysm

I woke up in the morning two days ago feeling a slight pain in my throat and it is obviously sore throat caused by colds because my brother brought the virus home. He had a sore throat too as well as my maid. So rode the bus and it was fucking hot! Anyway when I got to school I asked Chiara to accompany me to the clinic to get some strepsils.

So I was blowing my nose and as much as possible prevent myself from sneezing because of my fear of infecting others. Then while heading to the bus Alayne asked me to go with her and buy from 'Manong' and I bought some sprite. Then when Bols and Du asked me if they can drink I told them it is okay. They drank and I immediately remembered that I was a very active endemic! I told and they were like...meh. Then later Du complained of throat pains!! FAIL! :|

Got home then sprayed Lysol every room in the house to prevent further infection and when my other brother got home he was complaining of the same illness and I was like "FUCK!" I asked my other brother where he got that and he said probably from LRT or from UP Manila which was close to PGH. So... My other maid and my dad still safe. As much as possible I use alcohol before leaving my room and at least I was able to spray Lysol, well I hope it works.

Just took another strepsil and it temporarily gives the relief I want. Anyway I hope I didn't infect any classmates of teachers. :|

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Adroitness, a Transcendent

So I'm starting to get... I don't know... Happy? Because my BEST MOM fought with my dad to really change him it took more than half an hour of anger. I hope that it would change him but I told my mom "Ma! Umasa ka pa! Hindi niya nga ma-admit na nagkamali siya... Pano pa siya magbabago kung ganyan siya. At tingnan mo nagmamatigas yan.. Sa tingin mo mag sosorry yan... Wala! Wag mo ng pagurin sarili mo because you've been saying the same thing over and over again for more than 26 years of your life to him."

I REALLY Love my mom and it hurts me and my brothers to see her hurt and any manner especially when we caused it. But I'm tired of seeing her hurt caused by one problem. I love my father but it is the only way to teach him and the only way to teach him is to let him know that we've been through struggles that HE CAUSED. We've been always saying "This is will be the last." But it seems we are too weak to fall for his facade of kindness fully covering what had taken place.

You may have noticed that I've been dreading my father a very long time already because of my previous blogs... but we really want to teach him what is right. I'm just... tired. Please listen to the song below. :)

Song:ETERNITY ~MEMORY OF LIGHTWAVES~-Noriko Matsueda & Takahito Eguchi

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Psychokinesis, An Aptitude

Since I was a child I've been fond of telekinesis, the ability to move objects using your mind. As I grew and knew what the world really is, a "PEZZO DE MERDA!" that takes a lot of time to decompose. From my perspective killing would be acceptable if who you are to kill is really corrupting the masses around him/her. Well if I had telekinesis I would just cut a person's head without being convicted of something because they have no proof.

If I ever had telekinesis I wouldn't be killing my haters or enemies because only the thing they corrupt is themselves which obviously is useless so I'd let them rot. Not that I'm sadistic in any way but you can't let the world do what is needed to be balanced, like karma you wait for it to happen which obviously you might need patience to do but obviously the world should. And if you side with the masses would you kill the one that corrupts them?

I never wrote a blogger about this but what if "A death of a few can enhance the life of the masses, those who are really suffering and important to society." If I really had or if any one had and used it for my perspective the world may or will live in fear but that prevents them from doing what is wrong.

"EVERYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE IS ONE FORCE WORKING TOWARDS A DIRECTION. BUT WHAT PUSHES US BACK? WHAT CAN POSSIBLY PUSH EVERYONE BACK AND HOLD ALL THE FORCE THAT MOVES FORWARD? GOD IS THE ANSWER, IF IT WEREN'T FOR HIM EVERYONE WOULD BE THINKING LIKE ME. MISANTHROPY IS A SIN. BUT I JUST CAN'T AVOID IT BECAUSE EVERYONE IS FUCKING RIDICULOUS!!"

Song:WELCOME TO INERTIA-Elogy

Monday, June 7, 2010

Disquietude isn't Regalement

So I was just wondering why our school schedule is still on June 9 and it isn't June 15 which seriously sucks because I'm nervous. For the fact that I only know 4 people there. :( This feeling is always inside me every first day of classes I still don't get use to it but I've got to make the most of it since it is my last year of my high school life.

Anyway I'd be seeing my old friends which is nice. Hopefully my teachers would be nice and I really don't want to attend ACP. I'd rather have four more hours of class than ACP. Anyway obviously I'm never excited for first day of classes. So I'll just sit and wait then College here I come!

Song:MADE FOR YOU-OneRepublic

Misanthropy and Umbrage

Last saturday my brother's eyes were operated due to the fact that he's "banlag" and he got out just today. We went there to visit him in MMC with my other brother and my da...(FUCK HIM). Anyway I had an emotional breakdown yesterday due to the fact that my mother now recognizes that I grow wrathful against my father.

She told me she knew what I felt because she has been with the very same problem for the past 26 years of their married life. I'm glad she also told me that because together we support each other and I finally understood for her being sometimes being upset during irrelevant times like being in a party.

We were only looking for attention from my father which he completely neglected. As for my eldest brother he himself is having a hard even just talking to my father. He only talks when it's a Q&A type of conversation.

During serious talks he is either in humour filled insulting mood or just plain FUCKING ANGRY. We just want him to feel what we felt for the past whole years of our lives. He is just... FUCKING USELESS... So much for respect but I've been giving it but where is it? Now I wouldn't give any hope he gets to fuck himself!

Song:LOST THEN FOUND-Leona Lewis ft. OneRepublic

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Innocuos or Pernicious

So today is MOTHER's DAY! Yehey.. so i made an image with photoshop :)), which involves a pig in the picture saying "Happy Mother's Day" and it introduces itself as Chino, my brother. XD Then my parent's left for some prayer meeting.

My cousin told me to play MapleStory so he can play with me. It is an online game that looks like Mario with bonus features. :)) And I'm starting to fill the wall up already of written notes. :D This summer is so boring! I started playing violin again because it has been neglected for almost a year. :| I also have to practice my piano recital piece because it would be at May 30, 2010 and I haven't even memorized the piece hassle!

Anyway I had just finished my College Entrance Exam Review at MSA last two weeks ago and it was fun. :D That's it just to keep my blogger UPDATED! :D

SUPER LATE POST! :)) LOL

Song: MAKE IT MINE-Jason Mraz

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Approbated Clairsentience

It's been a while since I've wrote something new in my blogger, so welcome back. This past few weeks I've been quite addicted to some song that really makes me sentimental which is quite good. I need some alone time every 11:00pm to 2:00am it was time to turn off the Laptop and a time to rethink, lament, and reflect.

I've missed being enlightened and some short prayers to God were the best. I really love Him, our God. :D Anyway I put on some lights turn on some music (emo). :)) If not grab the guitar or the violin then lock my room. I have been staring at my wall and planned on writing in it... the proper way.

I covered it with paper evenly distributed, just like tiles. :D I've began writing on it. It was like a public diary, I've wrote some of my hatred to the world and on how to fix it. It was so nice to let of some steam and my mom was even glad that I expressed how I felt so that she would understand me more.

It seems every after two nights I've been adding some papers on the wall, hopefully I would fill it. :D

Song:ALL FALL DOWN-OneRepublic

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Liedertafel with Doodads

OKay so we woke up at about 8:00 so we can go play ROCKBAND at Robinson's Manila with my brother and cousin. We went to UP Manila for my brother to check his grades up which turned out to be that he was missing a requirement. :)) To bad and out of 50-60 student only one passed barely :)) We laughed at it. Then checked out Rob then waited at Power Books.

10:30 we went back to the car and went to Burgundy Tower where nursing students review and also where my cousin's girlfriend was reviewing so we waited for her. Then off to Robinson's then we ate at McDonald's but somehow we forgot to reserve so my cousin and his gf went there founding out someone reserved before us with mere split seconds.

SO yeah bad3p we reserved and waited for 2 hours on some stall we can sit on. Just bought some siomai. Then bum for 2 hourse then went back to check out the other band players. :)) And somehow it was for 2 and a HALF hours. So we slept at the computer shop waiting. :)) Then wohoo! It was our turn :)) I sang Mr. Brightside, This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race, and for the finish POKER FACE! :)) Then got home... :P

Song:THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S AN ARMS RACE-Fall Out Boy

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Pastiche of Palendromes


ANG LALIM AMP!

Okay so we went to Palawan on sunday only me and my mom and all my cousins except for their father because the were busy. They will be joining us after the first day. SO yah... first day was kinda lame we like ate at Chicken Inato and slept. Anyway we sleep at a lodge for officers at the Air Base.

Second day, we picked up Pia's dad at the airport. Then we went to the Penal Rehabilitation Center where we can find the river where we can swim in. The old village where my mom and Pia's dad used to live is also there. Went back to Puerto Princesa then picked up my brothers and my dad during the afternoon and ate somewhere. Then we went back to home base.

Third day, UNDERGROUND RIVER and SAGUBA? BEACH, we went there at about 10:00 then we rode a boat to the are where the Underground River was found because it was on a separate island. Rode a row boat and the Tour Guide was hilarious :)). THE CAVE WAS AMAZING! :) There was a part there they call the Cathedral that was the best part for me! It is totally recommended for you to go if you haven't yet. Then after the cave we went back to the beach just to get some sunburn and we went back to home base.

Fourth day, HONDA BAY. This day was hilarious :)). Anyway we first rented snorkeling masks and camera holders for underwater. We rode the boat then went to some part of the ocean enclosed by small buoys to tell where we can swim. There was one part that some rope blocked my way, I pushed it away but there happens to be some sort of plant growing in its tip that stung me! It made a big mark on me! :| anyway went on to the next island to eat some lunch and play some seashore starfishes... we let the starfish suck our skin! :)) Next island this was the best :)) we had snorkeling. Then after that we left but somehow we forgot Pia's brother at the island. We were about three boats away from the island. He swam towards us and the water was kinda deep. :)) Okay another island this is where we settled and this island has the least amount of time we swam. We changed our clothes then again returned to home base.

Fifth day, we have to wake up at 3:00 in the morning so we can travel to EL NIDO, we got there at about 9:00 and the cliffs were so beautiful! :} Okay so we were told to move on to the beach to island hop. We went to the SMALL LAGOON it was beautiful until I got stung by a jellyfish! :| In the center of the lagoon was a slab of stone where you can stand so you can rest because it was very deep. Then somebody swam in front of me pushing away from the stone which also let the deep water pull me down and scratch my legs on to the sharp rocks!(PIC ABOVE!) :|. Swam then my wrist got stung by a jelly fish and then my elbow! :| third time to get stung by jellies. :)) Then to the BIG LAGOON it was not recommended for us to swim because there are numerous jellyfishes and urchins and it was simply too deep. We moved to the SECRET LAGOON. This was kinda lame but we ate here so yah it made it better and we also grab some jellyfishes and throw them further back to the ocean. Then we move on to some snorkeling area but the waves were to strong so we were told that we move on to the LONG BEACH. Also lame except for the part we made solid hard sand balls! :)) Then we went back to some stay in place then slept.

Sixth day, Puerto Princesa, we were returning and settling so there is nothing to talk about this day,

Seventh day, NOW, got home at about 11:00 then we went to church and yah SIGNAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)) THERE WAS NO SIGNAL FOR SUN THERE! SUCK! :| Anyway gudnyt :))

Song:THE REMEDY-Jason Mraz

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Aberrant or Spastic

Ok... So I woke up at 7:30 to go to my dentist at Manila we got there at about 9:00 then finished at about 10:30. We then went to Recto, Manila to repair my cousin's picture frames. Then we have to wait for about 1:30 before it finishes we went to Greenhills then I saw Caguiat :)) he also saw me.

Then we bought some slippers for our Palawan outing then we ate at Brother's Burger we finished at about 10:20 roamed around for some more then we got back to Recto to pick the frames up. We then delivered the frames to our cousin and also our brother, who's birthday is today (HAPPY BIRTDAY! :D), was then we left.

Now I'm home packing up my bags :D. Can't get over! :)) WOOHOO! PALAWAN! :D Anyway don't comment something to bashful if you went to somewhere better because I wouldn't care? Keep it to yourself :D APRIL 8!! :D Please read the rules if you haven't read it. No fighting please especially on my site :)). PLEASE BE SENSITIVE. OK :D

Song:SUDDENLY-Ryan Ferguson

Friday, March 26, 2010

Calescent or Sweltering

Obviously everyone knows that its fucking hot. So I can barely concentrate on... never mind I don't do anything during summer. Summer just full of relaxation and boredom. I sure do love the "Vacation" than the "Summer". It just so unbearable, just a few streaks of sunlight it already makes me perspire.

I can't even leave my room just to get some glass of cold water. Anyway I'll be DARK! :D Palawan trip! During Holy Week! Then 3A outing at Laguna! :D :D APRIL 8!! :D There would be lots of... yah* stuff. :)

Outing Rules:
1. No KJ's no PJ's please don't talk about GJ's and BJ's are optional.
2. Nobody gets secluded from the group.
3. Bring ALCOHOLIC DRINKS it's necessary.
4. Please never ever smoke.
5. Sleep wherever you fall.
6. No sober "JANELLE"
7. As much as possible bring P500 for pocket money.
8. Bring your own food.
9. If you're horny don't resist.
10.Everyone deserves to drink.
11.Short tempers during the trip are not allowed. (WALANG PIKON)
12.Be aware that Joey's mom would be there.
13.Bring your own medicine. :)
14.Light bags only because we might go to EK or Splash Island. XD
15.De-virginize your LIVER with ALCOHOL!
16.Most important rules are: 2,4,12

Song:COUNTDOWN-Jupiter One

Friday, March 19, 2010

Amarinthine Ardor and Despondency

TAMAD MAG SCAN!


This day was full of FUN! because our group had the most awards and over all we won and the reason WE DID IT FOR 3 MONTHS!!... and that group anyway is for the FILIPINO MOVIE. By the way the subject before that was math he gave us a PLUS POINT quiz for the quiz that we ALL FAILED IN! The day was kinda boring... for the MEAN WHILE!

Anyway we finished "LIAR LIAR" for our CLE. Moving on to TLE... we distributed our profit share WOOHOO!!! :)) Then they played with fire awhile ago spraying and burning their pants! :)) We went to the LABORATORY and our experiment was pretty cool but it didn't involve fire except for lighting the match! AND THEN CAME THE PARTY!! :))

We burned a lot things then we made those things look like 3A! It was so much FUN!! We were cheering inside the LAB, closing the lights, and party with fire! :)) Of course alcohol was very persistent in the project.

...Well everytime I remember that the SY will be ending it made me sad! Who isn't, probably a few"?" If any 3A read this THANKS AGAIN!! SEE YOU AT APRIL 8 and during 4th year hoping we'd still be friends! May papush-up push-up na tayo next year! XD JFMA on the FLOOR!! :((

Song:CHANCES-Five For Fighting

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Copiously Enervated



I'm Copiously Enervated (completely saddened) because the school year will be ending by next week. I'm gonna miss the best section I've ever had in Colegio San Agustin. It is something worth remembering since the day I started at CSA. I still can't get over that the school year will end because it only felt for about a month or shorter"?".

A lot of my classmates have been bringing there cameras for... of course memories. :D Through the best math teacher :)) the very "radical" filipino teacher "WOOOH!" the good white lady teacher of CLE, the gases we shared during chemistry :)), the best notes given by the scientific social teacher, the unattended classes during PE, the teacher who caught us at the rye :| :)), the annoying "Y R WE SO NOISY!", the noisy MUSIC CLASS, the repeated songs and jokes of the engineer comp teacher "ON THE BOARD!", it all came down to this... WE WILL SURELY MISS THEM!

Planning for our class outing still on going and obviously I cannot wait for it anymore! Thank You very much teachers and classmates!! :D APRIL 8!!! WOOH!

Song: HEY, SOUL SISTER - Train

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Repudiate the Jocularity

On friday we finished our Filipino Project and gloriously enjoyed it! :D Everything is settled, and Andruew found a van worth P3000. The Filipino Project was fun we then relaxed for awhile till night time and played with Lego's :)).

Got home at about 7:30 pm and our family friend was their and her daughter. I like fixed her laptop. Then the following morning my friend and my brother doesn't seem to know how to assemble the Shisha. I watched it on youtube then viola! I know how to. :D

During the night we assembled the Shisha placed the tobacco and other stuff. We tried it and there was smoke!! :D The problem is we can't seem to taste the flavor, we were like FAIL! So she our friend and her mother went home by 11:00. The Shisha was a big fail. :|

Song: BUST A MOVE - Glee Cast (Mr. Schuester)

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Trepidation and Rupture

So this day is so boring but Filipino LT was so hard! Anyway after Chemistry which is after P.E. I planned not to attend anymore because I never attend P.E. and since yesterday Sir Contreras was happy because I finally brought my Trigonometry and he then knew my sobriquet awhile ago which everyone knows it is "Chiuie".

So P.E. I did plan on attending but the field is taken so we won't be able to do soccer so the problem was we would be playing basketball and obviously I don't have love for the game. So later on we talked about the trip for JOEY'S BIRTHDAY! :D So yah it would be very exciting.

While we're board I wrote "YOU SPIN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND WHEN YOU GO DOWN WHEN YOU GO DOWN DOWN" and replaced the lyrics with symbols on the floor of the covered court. :)) So this day is such a bum but it is always fun to have your friends around. :P

Song:
RIGHT ROUND - FloRida ft. Ke$ha

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Construe the Conundrum

Problems have been going down smoothly since our group for research were done with the tarpaulin although somebody didn't bring it. Parish Involvement is now solved thanks to someone, and Filipino and Social Studies LT have been moved to thursday which gives us more studying time.

A while ago Rachelle and I were so worried about tomorrows defense on our research project. Our teacher asked about the tarpaulin but the BITCH hasn't still made it giving us excuses, WHERE WOULD YOU FIND A TARPAULIN BEING MADE IN MONTHS AND STILL DON'T GET IT?! Okay so she's a BITCH so she's out of the group! :D

Anyway after talking with Sir he somehow joked about us to not join the defense and Rachelle was like "SIGE!" and he was like okay. :)) MADE MY FUCKING DAY! :D Me and Rachelle we're LIKE WOHOO! BITCH WE'RE FINE FOR THE WHOLE SY. So I'm actually studying for Social Studies. :D

From now on I'll be posting songs! :D... That represents my mood for today!
SECRETS - OneRepublic

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Kismet in Quagmire

Okay it has been only one day since the incident happened with our Filipino Project now there is a new problem the had risen long ago, PARISH INVOLVEMENT. We are now planning to fix the problem with our project but Parish is due THIS WEEK. I haven't even started.

Kevin, Du, and I planned to go to parish in moonwalk during this day and tomorrow but Du wasn't able to come because he accompanied his mother to the hospital. So it was only Kevin and I. He said to go to his house by 7:30.

Woke up went to his house then went to church... and... it was closed. Met Patrick along the way and he told us to wait for it to open but we would have to wait for an hour and the problem is there is no place for us to wait for. We want home tired and screwed.

I IM with Du and he told there wouldn't be any parish tomorrow at moonwalk! THERE ARE NO MORE PLACES TO GO! I'm so tired and angry now there are to problems and both are 10% of my grade and they're requirements.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Burlesque and Prescience

Our group for the Filipino Project has already started filming and planning since January, but there are still scenes that we haven't finished until now... or not. Our group planned for the whole week of when will be filming again, and that day is today. Went to High Street with Janelle, Ara, Nina, and Alec(epal). :D We done alot as in ALOT of scenes and the only scene left to be finished is the ending.

We rested for a bit and checked out the stores and we also sat by the benches. Ara was taking a picture of Janelle for the poster of the movie. Picture after picture, then Joey suggested make-up for her fierce look then Nina ask if anyone wanted to join with her in the CR, then Ara went with her with the camera.

It took little time before they got back and Ara began to wonder where the camera was. She quickly ran to the CR finding nothing and she went back countless times and asked the janitress and she also looked for the trashcan but it seems it wasn't just there. We of course reported to the guards. There is little they can do unless someone gave it to them.

It brought us all down. We were so happy to have done a lot of scenes but ended pretty FUCKED UP! It took some time before we moved out from the benches then chilled again at Fully Booked. My goodness! Can't stop laughing while we were there we found the interactive books of children pretty fun!:)) Janelle and I can't seem to stop laughing.

Then Ara came with three book from PostSecret read it unimpressed and depressed. Then it was time to go home. I got home try to prepare for my parish involvement tomorrow, please help me GOD! Anyway it is very slim for the person to turn in the camera so we would be shooting again! :|

I bought a new book anyway. :D Something to read at school again but I still can't seem to get over it! FUCK! :|

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Guffaw of Amalgamated Perturbation

So much confusion today. Non-stop laughing (as always) and some near miss FAIL! I started the day with the same boring routine and when getting to school with no idea there would be any quizzes doesn't seem to be a surprise for me anymore. Studied for the not surprising quiz for Social Studies. Gazed at some math homeworks that students which of course they were tired of doing.

During lunch Pia brought KULANGOT and some Choco Flakes and we totally messed up the table. Pia and Annika went out to buy some food but when they got back Pia wasn't really hungry and gave the food to me. HAPPINESS! Computer quiz was done in 5 minutes. SS quiz then got my MATH LT, I was 25/40 but the passing was 28 I got 2 corrections which only got me 27/40 NEAR-MISS! FUCK!

Got home pissed wishing I can go to Fully Booked or Power Books! :D So boring no more books to read but only to re-read the Divine Comedy :P! I PRAISE DANTE ALIGHIERI! :D Okay so I'm doing research so don't fucking disturb me! :|

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Enliven Animosity

It was the third and last day of fair yesterday. I was able to go to school due to the mistake of our bus operator for not having the knowledge that there wasn't suppose to be any bus on Saturday. Went to school; same old lame day at fair ate sat at only one place at the cafetorium from 8 o'clock until we moved to our classrooms at 12 o'clock.

We were told to get the props for the Cheering Competition and after that there would be practice. After first practice I wasn't in the mood because someone was so damn frank at things, nothing went well. I then accompanied Jo and her friends for her pictorial and claimed her missing illustration boards from the guards.

Second practice started then after that moving out to the field. MY GOD! Senior's entrance was nice but I didn't like anything more after that. Freshies were so overpopulated they won't fit all in the bench. WOOH JUNIORS!! :D Too bad for the sophomores they have a curse, so there is nothing to mention about them.

Awarding started and *blah blah* then "The 1st runner up for... something something is... JUNIORS!" Guess who cheered. The Seniors! WAF! After the award was given they got 1st place then we got 2nd place. Walk out? :| Got home ate and slept even though we got 2nd place I'm still proud! :D WOOHO!!

Friday, February 12, 2010

Vapid Vivacity

These first two days of fair sucks.There is nothing to do but waste money on food. We went around the school, text, and look for each other. We go to school by 7: 30 waiting in Nina's bus. We watched Padre de Pamilya then walked out during dismissal time, it was actually a nice movie but if it wasn't too late I would still watch.

Then during yesterday night I drank some alcohol. I went to school just to get the batch shirt, but too bad it wasn't given today. I just ate again today, wasted fucking money. Now that I'm home I can be able to do what I want now, I'm currently watching The Simpsons. :D Okay boring now. :|

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Guileless Puerility

OH MY GOD!!! So stupid. I'm so fucking angry right now but back at school I was so happy because during the cheering competition the batch was so good but now at home the happiness faded away. Okay I planned on drinking today so yah because my cousin was here and yeah. When I was at school I was fucking excited.

When I got home I was still alone at my house reading my book. My brother came and picked my cousin because she needs new shoes for her job, so they were away for awhile. Then when they got home she announced to the whole house "Okay bili na tayo ng drinks!", I was like fuck! Be quiet! My father started getting angry and questioning what will we buy he was like, "WHAT DRINKS!!!!". I was like, "...err...err...arghhh... ALCOHOL!"

He was so angry and I'm so angry to my cousin. Although there won't be classes tomorrow just having our Fair Day. It was completely stupid to tell that were drinking. So much for the excitement and fun at school it is now destroyed within seconds. Not in the mood just watching my brother play "Assassin's Creed" because "Assassin's Creed 2" was so short i finished it in 5 days! :)) :) :| :( :(( ... MIXED EMOTIONS!

Friday, February 5, 2010

The Imminent Contingency

Junior Prom... will be tomorrow. Okay since monday my mom told me to prepare some of my things for the upcoming Junior PROM, I was like "OK". She like told me to find new slacks and stuff which I did. Then on tuesday Jo told me that Bols and the others were buying a corsage but it was around 350 pesos. The first time I bought one was about 150.

Moving on I asked my mom if I can have money for a corsage and she gave me but my dad knew of a place where I can get a corsage. Thursday during PE time I was texting to a friend of how we will be able to bring down our bags for the hotel. She told us to bring on friday and she will check-in already.

Although this isn't my first time to go to prom (It's my Third) I'm quite looking forward to it than past proms because I actually know the people. Anyway it is already tomorrow. So I'm going to...eat! :D

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Privy Vehemence of a Kibitzer

The day sucks! Although a little enlightenment in the end. It started with a same old boring day at school well I was expecting it to be OK because there won't be any practice until five o'clock. Anyway we were given a homework which was actually easy, this teacher even thought us how to do it, he even gave the easiest way on how to do it. But as any typical teenager student, we are simply apathetic to do it.

On the day itself he stared wondering why few papers are on the desk which were suppose to be homeworks, he started scolding us and told us to go outside the room do the homework and be not exempted from the upcoming quiz. He even told us that the LT and the quiz will be done at the same period, quite a good punishment, on his side though.

He started exempting the people who did the homework from the quiz and collected their papers seperately from our papers. All kinda went well he asked us to check put the damn scores, then this girl, our classmate, came late to class and claims she had excused herself from class but merely she cutted class. This teacher obviously had enough, he tore the paper into half of those who wasn't able to do the homework and walked-out, to bad I had a perfect score.

We started feeling bad (I don't know about the others) but we were thinking if he will be giving us a Major Behavioral Report and the case was Defiance. As we got our diaries we were grateful that he didn't give us any BR so everybody was happy. THANK GOD! and especially him. I cannot thank you enough, although how much we abused his kindness. But still the punishment will still be pushed through. Sighhh*.

ANYWAY PROM IS ON SATURDAY!!!

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Saturday, January 30, 2010

Impuissant to Cessation

During a friend's birthday last month ago we waited at Fully Booked. I came across a familiar book called "The Judas Strain", a novel by James Rollins. I knew the author and remembered the the book was a part of a series called the Sigma Force. So I was so interested to buy it and so far it has only six books, but their will be a seventh by June.

I asked my mom if I can have the books for christmas and of course she said yes. Went to National Bookstore at SM Sucat. Got the Fifth book (SUCKS). Anyway after that week we came to MOA for gifts and went to National again and we got the first book (YAY). Then we went to Power Books and got the remaining second, fourth and sixth book (ANOTHER YAY).

Started reading at January two the first, second and fourth, because I didn't have the third one. I finished the three books after two weeks. Then we had a project in Filipino and decided to do it at Fully Booked and I was able to buy the third book (YAYYY!) :D. Just finished it awhile ago then I started with the fifth book.

I just cannot stop reading it's so nice LOL! :)).
I'll just put the list:D :
1. Sandstorm
2. Map Of Bones
3. Black Order
4. Judas Strain
5. Last Oracle
6. Doomsday Key
7. Devil Colony (JUNE) :(

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Meticulously Abased

Such a bad day seriously. Probably the whole week! I haven't passed any PT's, and all of them... near misses! Just a few points to just pass me. Just opened my blogger to let of some steam and the fact that multiply sucks shit now. Anyway this day is depressing.

Also the fact that I had forgot that I have a make-up quiz for math a while ago. So I could pull my grades up but now it is just weighing it down. Fuck errrr... This was the first time I failed at every test and nearly coming to the fact that we will be checking our grades for CLE tomorrow and if I ever failed. SO HELP ME GOD! I'm gonna be grounded! The fact that everytime I'm grounded I can't use any gadget except of course the phone and probably they'll even add not reading books connected to school.

Ironically I wrote at the most of the answer sheets with MC & HNY can you please pass me ending up dumped up. All I can do now is to pray. I'd really needs God help here. I hope he lets me pass. Whatever happens bad or good. It will pass but forn now... HELP ME! :|